14 years ago, our lives changed forever when this bundle of joy, of creativity, of contemplative spirit joined our family on New Years Day.
Parenthood is a journey. It’s filled with the highest of highs, the lowest of lows, and everything in between.
For 14 years, watching Owen grow into a compassionate confidante, big brother, an adventurous traveler, a sensitive soul always observing before taking action but then, when he’s ready, leaping in whole-heartedly.
I always knew I wanted to be a mom but, like many women, when the time came, I felt grossly unprepared and unsure of myself.
Owen and I are different in a lot of ways but, one thing we share is a desire to please others. And, in wanting to please me when I wasn’t secure in my own worthiness, I didn’t always respond the way his observant, logical brain expected me to.
The pain I’d see in his face in those moments cut deep into my soul. I suffered from mom guilt, anxiety, fear. It made me reactive. I projected. I mom-guilted even more.
In honor of Owen’s Bar Mitzvah this past summer, I wrote him a letter. I wanted to share what I had learned. I wanted him to know I was doing the work to heal my wounds. And, most importantly, I wanted him to hear my heart.
Owen’s great obsession now is music production and my dear friend, Lais, helped me turn my letter into a song. Owen’s Bridge. Available now, in celebration of his birthday. Of a new year.
Of healing and growing together.
Happy birthday to my sweet, sensitive, creative, kind Owen!
Happy 2022 to all my followers and friends!
May you feel worthy.
May you have the space to grow!
About this “playcast”:
Life is messy. Kids are messy. Parenting is messy!
But, messy can be good.
To paraphrase Mrs. Frizzle, it means you’re taking chances, making mistakes, and learning.
Creative Spirit, Playful Discipline is a mini-podcast – a playcast! – for parents who want to embrace their uniqueness, shatter the “shoulds”, and find a rallying cry for their families so they can create fun, magically messy memories to last a lifetime.